提醒

昨天跟南丁通電話，聊著聊著，才發現自己在信仰上出現了一個大問題。

其實也不只那一個問題，最近我也發現自己跟神的距離越來越遠。除了因為我極愛埋怨之外，也因為懶散，讀經禱告也是隨隨便便。雖然很多時間聖靈都催促我，但我總是得過且過。

所以前兩天我就說，每次當我走到我的事奉面前時，我都很愧疚。覺得這樣的一個我，真配事奉神嗎？難道神會看不穿這個辛勤在衪面前事奉的人的心是何等空洞嗎？

可是，我還是選擇逃避神。不去好好面對自己的問題。結果就是非常空虛，繼續自怨自艾下去。

幸好，神沒有任憑我沉淪下去，衪仍然以不同的渠道提醒我，讓我看見自己的問題和性情上的軟弱。

於是，我不再頹了。我要振作起來，要重拾以前對神的那種渴慕。惟有衪叫人心得滿足。

果然尋找就尋見，早上靈修讀到羅馬書12:1-10，一篇耳熟能詳的經文，神用這篇經文一次過把我的問題指出來：

Romans 12

Living Sacrifices

1 Therefore, I urge you, brothers, in view of God's mercy, to offer your bodies as living sacrifices, holy and pleasing to God—this is your spiritual act of worship. 2 Do not conform any longer to the pattern of this world, but be transformed by the renewing of your mind. Then you will be able to test and approve what God's will is—his good, pleasing and perfect will.
3 For by the grace given me I say to every one of you: Do not think of yourself more highly than you ought, but rather think of yourself with sober judgment, in accordance with the measure of faith God has given you. 4 Just as each of us has one body with many members, and these members do not all have the same function, 5 so in Christ we who are many form one body, and each member belongs to all the others. 6 We have different gifts, according to the grace given us. If a man's gift is prophesying, let him use it in proportion to his faith. 7 If it is serving, let him serve; if it is teaching, let him teach; 8 if it is encouraging, let him encourage; if it is contributing to the needs of others, let him give generously; if it is leadership, let him govern diligently; if it is showing mercy, let him do it cheerfully.

Love
9 Love must be sincere. Hate what is evil; cling to what is good. 10 Be devoted to one another in brotherly love. Honor one another above yourselves.

我的神是配得稱頌的~因為衪總不丟棄我!!!